In Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), the experience of alters when looking in the mirror can vary significantly depending on the individual and the specific alter who is fronting (in control) at that moment. The experience may also evolve throughout the course of therapy and as the individual progresses in their healing journey. Here are a few possible scenarios:
Seeing the Body as It Is: Some alters may see the physical body as it actually is, regardless of their mental image of themselves. They might recognize that the body is male (in the example you provided) and be aware of its appearance in the mirror. This experience may not cause significant distress for some alters, while others may feel uncomfortable or disconnected from the reflection.
Seeing the Mental Image: On the other hand, some alters may not fully identify with the physical body and may see themselves differently in the mirror. They may experience a mental image of themselves as a different gender, age, or appearance. This can lead to feelings of confusion, dissociation, or dysphoria when confronted with the reflection in the mirror, especially if it contradicts their internal sense of self.
Co-consciousness and Blending: In some cases, there might be co-consciousness or blending between alters. This means that multiple alters may be aware of each other's thoughts and perceptions while one alter is fronting. In such situations, the alter in control may see both their own mental image and the physical body's reflection simultaneously. This can create a complex and sometimes disorienting experience.
Avoidance or Avoiding Mirrors: Some alters may feel uncomfortable or distressed when looking in the mirror, regardless of whether they see their mental image or the body's reflection. As a result, they may actively avoid mirrors altogether to cope with this discomfort.
Integration and Healing: As therapy progresses and healing occurs, alters may work towards integration, where the different identity states become more cohesive. This process can lead to a more unified sense of self, reducing the dissonance between the mental image and the physical reflection.
It's important to note that individuals with DID can have a range of experiences, and not all alters may experience the same things when looking in the mirror. These experiences can be influenced by past traumas, individual coping mechanisms, and the overall therapeutic progress of the person with DID.
Therapy for DID typically focuses on improving communication between alters, addressing past traumas, and working towards integration and healing. A supportive and understanding therapist can help individuals explore their experiences, emotions, and reactions to the reflections they see in the mirror, fostering a safe environment for processing and growth.