The experience of being an alter within a person with DID can vary widely and is unique to each alter. Some common aspects reported by alters include:
Identity Separation: Alters typically have their own distinct identity, thoughts, emotions, memories, and sense of self. They may feel separate from the host (the core identity of the person with DID) and other alters.
Memory Differences: Alters may have varying degrees of awareness about the other alters and their shared life experiences. Some alters may have complete amnesia about the existence of others, while others may have limited or full awareness.
Switching: Switching refers to the process of one alter taking control of the person's behavior and consciousness from another alter. The experience of switching can vary widely, from being sudden and disorienting to more gradual and seamless.
Internal Communication: Alters may communicate with each other internally, which can range from cooperative and supportive interactions to conflicts and struggles.
Different Behaviors and Abilities: Each alter may have its own distinct behaviors, preferences, skills, and even physical traits. For example, one alter may be good at art, while another may excel at problem-solving.
Emotional States: Alters can have different emotional experiences, coping mechanisms, and reactions to various situations.
Roles and Functions: Some alters may have specific roles or functions within the system, which could be related to coping with trauma, protecting the system, or handling specific tasks.
Feeling "Real" and Autonomous: Alters often experience themselves as real individuals with their own autonomy, thoughts, and feelings, even though they share the same physical body with the host and other alters.
It's essential to note that being an alter in a DID system can be a complex and challenging experience. Alters may have their own traumas, fears, and emotional struggles. Additionally, cooperation and communication among alters are vital for the well-being of the entire system. Therapy, especially specialized treatment for dissociative disorders, can play a crucial role in helping alters work together, heal from trauma, and lead more integrated lives.