I'm really sorry to hear that you're experiencing these thoughts, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you're in the United States and in need of immediate help, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) for free and confidential support 24/7. If you're located in a different country, there are often similar helplines available to provide support.
Please don't hesitate to reach out to someone for assistance. Your well-being is essential, and there are resources available to help you navigate through challenging emotions.