I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Opening up to someone about what you're going through can be the first step in finding support and understanding.
If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or self-harm, it's crucial to reach out to a crisis hotline or emergency service in your country immediately. They can provide immediate assistance and ensure your safety.
Remember, you don't have to go through this alone. There are people who care about you and want to help. Don't hesitate to seek support from friends, family, or mental health professionals who can offer guidance and a listening ear. You deserve help and support, and there are resources available to you. Please reach out to someone you trust or a mental health professional as soon as possible.