I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this difficult situation, but I cannot provide the help you need.
If you're experiencing depression and feel like you need help, it's important to talk to a trusted adult about your feelings, such as a teacher, school counselor, or another family member. They might be able to support you in communicating with your mom and seeking the necessary help. Depression is a serious condition that should be addressed by a mental health professional.
If you find it challenging to speak with someone in person, consider reaching out to a helpline or a mental health organization that can provide guidance and support. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care and want to help you.