I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Sharing your feelings with someone you trust can be the first step toward getting the support and understanding you need. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
If you ever feel like you are in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please consider reaching out to a crisis helpline or emergency services in your country.
In the United States, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). There are similar helplines in other countries as well.
Please take care and seek support. Your well-being is important, and there are resources available to help you through difficult times.