I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who want to support you.
If you are in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please reach out to a helpline in your country. In many countries, there are suicide prevention hotlines staffed by trained professionals who can listen and provide support.
Please take care and prioritize seeking help from a mental health professional or a support network. Your feelings are valid, and there are resources available to help you through this difficult time.