I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I cannot provide the help that you need. If you're struggling with mental health issues or feel like you might be experiencing a manic episode, it's essential to seek professional help immediately. Reach out to a mental health professional or a healthcare provider who can properly assess your situation and provide appropriate support and guidance.
Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who can help you navigate through difficult times. If you're in a crisis or need immediate assistance, please consider reaching out to a crisis hotline or seeking help from friends, family, or your local healthcare provider. Take care of yourself and prioritize your well-being.