I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. They can offer support and guidance.
If you're in the United States and need someone to talk to immediately, you can reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or use their online chat at suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/. For other countries, there are similar hotlines available.
Remember, it's okay to seek help, and you don't have to go through difficult times alone. There are people who care about you and want to help.