Intrusive thoughts are unwanted thoughts, images, or urges that can pop up in your mind and cause distress. They are a common occurrence and can happen to anyone. The fact that you have intrusive thoughts doesn't make you a bad person.
The content of these thoughts can be disturbing and can involve thoughts of harm, inappropriate actions, or socially taboo behavior. However, having these thoughts does not mean you will act on them, and it certainly doesn't make you "bad" or inherently harmful. In fact, the distress and discomfort you feel about these thoughts show that they are not in line with your values and character.
If you're repeatedly trying to imagine yourself doing the things you're thinking about to make sure you wouldn't like it, it could potentially be a sign of "compulsion." This behavior can be seen in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), where a person tries to neutralize or counteract the distress caused by the intrusive thoughts.
Remember, I'm an artificial intelligence and can provide basic guidance, but if you're struggling with intrusive thoughts and they're causing significant distress, it's important to reach out to a mental health professional for help. They can provide the necessary tools and strategies to manage these thoughts more effectively.