I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in immediate distress or danger, please reach out to emergency services or a helpline in your country. In many places, there are helplines you can call or text to talk to someone who can provide support and resources.
Take care of yourself, and don't hesitate to seek help. Your well-being is important, and there are resources available to assist you in difficult times.