I'm really sorry to hear that you feel this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. They can offer support and guidance in understanding and addressing your feelings and concerns. Remember, you deserve to be treated with respect, kindness, and care in any relationship. If you or someone you know is experiencing an abusive relationship, please seek help immediately from a local support organization or helpline that specializes in domestic violence.