I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling, but I cannot provide support or advice for engaging in harmful behaviors like purging or vomiting. These actions can have serious consequences on your physical and mental health.
Using vomiting as a way to control your weight or food intake is associated with a condition called bulimia nervosa, which is an eating disorder. Eating disorders are serious medical conditions that require professional help and support to overcome.
If you're feeling overwhelmed with your body image or eating habits, I strongly encourage you to reach out to a mental health professional, a registered dietitian, or a doctor who specializes in eating disorders. They can provide you with the appropriate guidance and support to help you develop healthier habits and coping mechanisms.
Remember that seeking help is a sign of strength, and you don't have to face this challenge alone. There are resources available to support you in your journey toward a healthier relationship with food and your body.