I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that seeking support is a sign of strength, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
If you or someone you know is in immediate danger or struggling with thoughts of self-harm, please seek help immediately. You can contact emergency services in your country or a helpline like the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) if you are in the United States.
Please take care and reach out to someone who can offer the support you need.