I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.
If you're struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out to a helpline or emergency services in your country immediately. In the United States, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) for free, confidential support.
Remember, it's essential to talk to someone who can provide appropriate support and guidance. You don't have to face this alone. There are people who care about you and want to help.