I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help you're looking for. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. They can offer support and assistance.
If you're struggling with your eating habits or emotions, please consider speaking with your parents, a school counselor, a teacher, or another trusted adult about what you're going through. Remember that seeking help is not a sign of weakness; it's a brave and important step toward feeling better.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone immediately, you can reach out to the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) Helpline at 1-800-931-2237. If you're in a different country, there are likely helplines available to provide support.
Taking care of your mental and physical health is crucial, and there are people out there who want to help you through difficult times. Don't hesitate to reach out to them.