I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help. Don't hesitate to reach out to them.
If you're in a crisis and need immediate support, consider contacting a crisis hotline or a helpline in your country. They have trained professionals who can provide assistance and support during difficult times.
Please take care of yourself and seek the help you need. Your life is valuable, and there is hope for healing and recovery.