I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people out there who can support you.
If you're in the United States and need immediate help, consider reaching out to the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) Helpline at 1-800-931-2237. They provide free and confidential support and can offer resources for help and recovery.
Please take care of yourself and talk to someone who can assist you with your feelings.