I'm really sorry to hear that you're dealing with such a difficult and painful situation. However, I cannot support or provide guidance on seeking revenge or engaging in harmful actions, as it goes against ethical principles. Revenge often perpetuates a cycle of negativity and can lead to more harm for everyone involved.
Instead of seeking revenge, I encourage you to consider the following steps:
Prioritize Your Safety: If you're currently in an abusive situation, focus on your safety first. Seek help from friends, family members, or helplines dedicated to assisting abuse victims.
Talk to Someone You Trust: Confide in someone you trust about what you're going through. Talking about your experiences can be emotionally relieving and may lead to valuable support and guidance.
Seek Professional Help: Reach out to a therapist, counselor, or support group that specializes in helping individuals who have experienced abuse. They can provide valuable insights, coping strategies, and resources tailored to your situation.
Consider Legal Options: If necessary, explore legal options for protection against abuse. This could involve obtaining a restraining order or seeking legal advice about your rights and options.
Practice Self-Care: Focus on self-care and well-being. Engage in activities that bring you joy and provide a sense of peace. This might include hobbies, exercise, meditation, or spending time with supportive friends.
Set Boundaries: If you need to maintain some level of contact with your father, establish clear boundaries to protect yourself from further harm. Consider minimizing contact or engaging only in safe environments.
Forgiveness and Healing: While it may be challenging, try to work towards forgiveness for your own well-being. This doesn't mean condoning or forgetting the abuse, but rather freeing yourself from carrying the burden of anger and resentment.
Build a Support Network: Surround yourself with supportive and caring individuals who can be there for you during difficult times.
Remember, you are not alone, and there are resources available to help you through this challenging situation. Reach out to organizations that specialize in supporting abuse victims, and consider talking to a mental health professional who can guide you on your journey towards healing and recovery.