It's not uncommon for individuals with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) to experience challenges in social situations and to feel more comfortable or like their "true self" when alone. People with DID may struggle with their sense of identity and have difficulties integrating their various alters, which can lead to feelings of disconnect and confusion in social interactions.
Feeling like the "true self" is only present when alone can be a result of several factors:
Safety and Control: Being alone might provide a sense of safety and control, where there is no risk of switching alters or experiencing triggers that could disrupt interactions with others.
Avoidance of Triggers: Some alters may be triggered by certain social situations or people, making it uncomfortable or distressing to be around others.
Fear of Judgment or Rejection: People with DID might fear judgment or rejection from others if their condition is misunderstood or stigmatized.
Difficulties with Integration: When alters are not well-integrated, a person might feel fragmented and struggle to form a cohesive social identity.
Past Trauma: Past traumas might have contributed to the development of DID, and social situations could trigger memories or emotions associated with the trauma.
It's essential to acknowledge that these feelings are valid and understandable given the complexities of DID and the challenges it presents. However, isolation and avoidance of social interactions may not be the most helpful long-term solution.
Therapy, particularly specialized trauma-focused therapy and treatments specifically designed for DID, can be beneficial. A trained therapist can help individuals with DID work through their feelings, facilitate communication and understanding between alters, and assist in the integration process. Therapy can also address the underlying trauma that contributed to the development of DID, leading to a more comprehensive and healing approach.
Remember that healing and managing DID can be a gradual and challenging process, but with the right support and treatment, it is possible to improve quality of life and find healthier ways to navigate social interactions and relationships.