It's important to understand that the identities and characteristics of alters in dissociative identity disorder (DID) are complex and can vary widely. Alters can have different genders, ages, races, and other attributes that may differ from the physical body and the host personality.
Having an alter of a different race than the physical body and host personality is not inherently racist. In DID, alters are created as a result of coping mechanisms developed in response to trauma. Their identities can be influenced by various factors, including the experiences and memories stored within the dissociative system.
As the host of the system, it's essential to recognize that you do not have control over the formation or characteristics of alters. Feelings of guilt or shame about the race or attributes of an alter are not productive or warranted because it's not something you chose or have control over.
Instead, focus on fostering understanding, compassion, and communication within your internal system. Embrace all aspects of your alters, including their differences, and work towards cooperation and coexistence within your system.
It may also be helpful to discuss these feelings with a mental health professional who has experience in treating dissociative disorders. They can provide support, validation, and guidance to navigate the complexities of DID and the experiences of your alters.
Remember that DID is a complex condition, and your experiences are unique to you. Embracing your alters and promoting understanding within your system can contribute to a more integrated and harmonious internal experience.