It's essential to understand the differences between various psychological experiences to better grasp your own feelings and experiences. Let's explore the distinctions between being on autopilot (well aware of what's going on but not emotionally attached), dissociation in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID):
Autopilot in CPTSD: CPTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) often involves periods of dissociation, which is a coping mechanism to deal with overwhelming or traumatic experiences. When you are on autopilot in the context of CPTSD, you may feel like you're going through the motions and carrying out everyday tasks without feeling fully present emotionally. It's as if you're detached or numb, going through the motions of life without experiencing the emotions fully. However, you are still aware of what is happening around you.
Dissociation in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD): Dissociation can also occur in individuals with BPD, but it might manifest differently from the autopilot experience in CPTSD. In BPD, dissociation can be more intense and might involve feeling disconnected from oneself, one's thoughts, emotions, and actions. It could also lead to losing touch with reality or experiencing distorted perceptions of oneself or the environment. Dissociation in BPD is often triggered by emotional distress or perceived threats to one's sense of self or relationships.
Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID): DID is a complex dissociative disorder in which an individual experiences distinct and separate identities or personality states. These identities may have their own memories, behaviors, and preferences. The switching between these identities can occur involuntarily and may result from traumatic experiences during childhood as a way to cope and protect the core self from overwhelming emotions or memories.
In summary, while dissociation is a common element in all three conditions, the degree and nature of dissociation differ. In CPTSD, being on autopilot means a sense of emotional detachment while being aware of one's surroundings. In BPD, dissociation may involve a more profound disconnection from oneself and reality, often triggered by emotional distress. On the other hand, DID involves the presence of distinct and separate identities or personality states.
If you suspect that you might be experiencing dissociation or other psychological symptoms, it's important to seek professional help from a mental health provider. They can conduct a proper assessment, provide a correct diagnosis, and offer appropriate support and treatment based on your individual needs. Remember, self-diagnosis can be misleading, so it's always best to consult a qualified professional for a comprehensive evaluation.