The experience you described could potentially be related to dissociation, which is a common feature of Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). Dissociation is a psychological defense mechanism that can occur in response to trauma or overwhelming stress.
Some individuals with C-PTSD may experience what is known as dissociative episodes or dissociative experiences, where they feel detached from their thoughts, emotions, or even their physical body. They may have a sense of "watching" themselves from the outside, as if they are an observer rather than an active participant in their own experience. Additionally, losing time, or experiencing time lapses, is another common characteristic of dissociation.
It's important to remember that I am not qualified to diagnose any medical or mental health conditions, and these experiences could also be related to other factors. If you're experiencing dissociative episodes or any other concerning symptoms, it's crucial to discuss them openly and honestly with your therapist or a mental health professional. They can help you better understand what you're going through and provide appropriate support and guidance.
C-PTSD is a complex condition that often requires specialized treatment approaches. Therapy, particularly trauma-focused therapies like Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) or Internal Family Systems (IFS) therapy, can be helpful in addressing trauma-related symptoms and promoting healing and recovery.