I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling like you're not getting the support you need. However, I cannot condone or support the idea of purposefully becoming an alcoholic or developing any harmful addiction to seek help or support from a particular program. Alcoholism is a serious and dangerous condition that can lead to severe health, social, and psychological consequences.
If you're seeking human support, there are healthier and more productive ways to do so. You can consider reaching out to friends, family members, or loved ones and share your feelings and concerns with them. If you feel uncomfortable doing that, consider seeking help from a mental health professional or counselor who can offer you a safe and supportive environment to discuss your thoughts and emotions.
Additionally, there are numerous support groups and communities that can provide understanding, encouragement, and empathy without requiring you to develop an addiction. You can explore local or online support groups that cater to your specific needs or interests.
Remember, seeking help and support is a sign of strength, not weakness. Please don't hesitate to reach out to someone who can help you navigate through whatever you're going through. Your well-being is important, and there are resources available to assist you in finding the support you need.