I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, it's okay to ask for help, and there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you're in immediate distress or having thoughts of self-harm, please reach out to a helpline or emergency services in your country. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are resources available to help you.