I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who want to support you.
If you're in the United States and in need of immediate help, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) to speak with someone 24/7.
Please take care of yourself and reach out to someone who can offer you the support you deserve. You are valued, and there is hope for a better tomorrow.