I'm really sorry to hear that you're in a difficult situation, but I cannot condone or support any form of violence or harm towards others. It's essential to treat people with respect and kindness, even when emotions are running high.
Right now, your priority should be to ensure your papa's safety and well-being. Check on him, offer comfort and apologize for your actions. If necessary, seek immediate medical attention if he appears to be injured or in pain. It's crucial to take responsibility for your actions and try to find a way to resolve conflicts without resorting to violence.
If you find it challenging to manage your emotions and handle conflicts calmly, consider seeking help from a trusted adult, family member, or professional counselor. They can offer guidance and support to improve your communication skills and emotional regulation.
Remember, violence is not an acceptable way to handle disagreements or conflicts. Always strive to find peaceful and constructive solutions to problems.