I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you are in the United States, you can reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) for free and confidential support. They are available 24/7 to listen and provide assistance.
Please consider talking to someone about what you're going through. Seeking help is a courageous step towards healing, and you don't have to go through this alone.