I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. Reach out to someone you trust and let them know what you're going through. If you're in immediate danger or need urgent help, please call emergency services in your country. Take care.