I can provide some general information about memory and the potential for remembering early experiences.
It is widely accepted in the field of psychology that memories from infancy (before the age of 3) are typically not accessible to conscious recall in later life. This phenomenon is known as childhood or infantile amnesia. The reasons behind childhood amnesia are not entirely understood, but some theories suggest that it might be due to a combination of factors such as the immaturity of the brain's memory systems during early development and the way memories are encoded and stored.
While it's unlikely for adults to remember specific events from infancy, experiences during early childhood can have a lasting impact on a person's emotional and psychological development. Some effects of early trauma or abuse might manifest in later life through emotional responses, behaviors, and even physical health issues.
If you suspect that you may have experienced abuse as a baby or toddler, and you are concerned about its potential impact on your well-being, it may be helpful to seek support from a mental health professional. A trained therapist can provide a safe environment for exploring and processing past experiences, even if explicit memories are not accessible.
Remember that therapy is a confidential space, and a skilled therapist can help you navigate any challenges you may be facing, providing guidance and support on your journey towards healing and personal growth.