I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that seeking help is a sign of strength, and there are people who want to support you through difficult times.
If you're struggling with thoughts of purging or any other harmful behaviors, please consider reaching out to a mental health professional or a helpline in your country. They can provide you with the support and resources you need. Your well-being is important, and there are people who care and want to help you through this.
In the United States, you can contact the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) helpline at 1-800-931-2237. They offer free and confidential support and can connect you with resources in your area.
Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who can help you find healthier ways to cope with your feelings and emotions. Take care.