I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there is support available, and you don't have to go through this alone.
Eating disorders can be very serious and harmful to your physical and mental health. Seeking professional help is crucial for understanding the underlying issues and finding healthier ways to cope. Recovery is possible, and there are resources and people who care about you and want to help.
Please consider reaching out to a mental health professional, a counselor, or a helpline in your country. They can offer appropriate guidance and support.