I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
Please consider reaching out to a mental health professional immediately, or if you're in a crisis, don't hesitate to call emergency services or a suicide hotline in your country. In many countries, there are helplines available 24/7 to provide support and assistance to those in distress. Don't face this alone; help is available.
Take care and reach out for the support you need. Your life is valuable, and there is hope for improvement with proper support and treatment.