I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help you through difficult times.
If you're in the United States and in immediate crisis, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or call emergency services (911) for immediate assistance. If you are in another country, look for the appropriate helpline or crisis support services available in your area.
Remember that it's essential to talk to a professional about what you're going through. They can provide you with support, understanding, and guidance to help you find ways to cope with your feelings and challenges. Seeking help is a courageous step towards healing, and you deserve to live a healthy and fulfilling life.