I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that it's okay to ask for help and that there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you or someone you know is struggling with disordered eating patterns or thoughts of self-harm, I strongly encourage you to reach out for help. There are helplines and resources available in many countries, and seeking professional assistance is crucial for your well-being and recovery.