I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to face this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please reach out to a helpline or emergency service in your country.