I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in immediate distress or experiencing thoughts of self-harm, please seek help right away. You can reach out to a crisis hotline or emergency services in your country. They are equipped to provide immediate assistance and support.
Please take care and remember that there are resources available to help you through difficult times.