I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there's no shame in seeking help, and you don't have to go through this alone.
If you're in the United States and in need of someone to talk to, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). They provide free and confidential support 24/7.
Please prioritize your well-being and safety and reach out to someone who can offer the appropriate help and support. You don't have to face this difficult time alone.