I can provide some general insights based on your description.
It's important to clarify that Allah, as understood in Islam, is not "always angry" at individuals. Allah is believed to be just and merciful, and His emotions are not human emotions. The idea of Allah being angry is often associated with the consequences of wrongdoing and sin. When people engage in actions that go against Islamic teachings, it's believed that they may incur displeasure from Allah.
On the other hand, the concept of Allah "staring at you" and "following you" when you're distraught to see if you're okay may not be a literal interpretation. In Islamic belief, Allah is all-knowing (omniscient) and all-seeing (omnipresent). Muslims believe that Allah is aware of everything that happens, and He cares for His creation, including humans.
When you feel distraught or facing difficulties, Muslims are encouraged to turn to Allah in prayer (dua) and seek His guidance and support. Allah is believed to be the Most Merciful and Compassionate, and it's common for believers to seek solace and comfort through their faith in difficult times.
If you are feeling a sense of Allah's presence during times of distress, it may be because you are turning to your faith as a source of support and comfort. Many believers find strength and solace in their faith when going through challenging moments.
It's important to remember that understanding and interpreting religious experiences can be complex and subjective. If you have specific concerns or questions about your experiences, it's best to seek guidance from a knowledgeable religious authority or counselor who can provide appropriate support and insights based on Islamic teachings.