I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there's no shame in seeking help, and you don't have to go through this alone.
If you're in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please consider reaching out to a crisis hotline or a helpline in your country. Many organizations offer 24/7 support for individuals experiencing crisis or suicidal thoughts. They can provide understanding, support, and resources to help you through difficult times.
Remember, seeking help is a sign of strength, not weakness, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. Don't hesitate to reach out to them. Take care.