I'm sorry to hear about your difficult experience with your therapist. It's essential to remember that therapists, like any other professionals, have their own personal and ethical boundaries. While I can't know the exact reasons for your therapist's behavior, I can provide some possible explanations and suggestions for coping:
Personal Boundaries: Therapists maintain professional boundaries with their clients to ensure the therapeutic relationship remains focused on the client's needs. Your therapist may have chosen not to respond to your mail as a way of maintaining those boundaries during the break you requested.
Ethical Considerations: Therapists have ethical guidelines to follow, which may include specific rules about communication during breaks. They might be following these guidelines to ensure they do not compromise the therapeutic process.
Processing Time: Your therapist might need some time to process the content of your mail and consider how to respond thoughtfully. Therapists also have their own lives and responsibilities outside of their work.
Miscommunication: It's possible that there was a miscommunication or misunderstanding, and your therapist may not have intended to ghost you intentionally.
Here are some coping strategies:
Self-Care: During this break from therapy, prioritize self-care. Engage in activities that bring you comfort, relaxation, and support.
Seek Support: Talk to friends, family, or other support systems about your feelings related to the break with your therapist.
Reflect on the Issue: Take some time to reflect on the reasons for the fallout and your feelings about the situation. Journaling can be helpful for processing your thoughts and emotions.
Reach Out Again: If you feel comfortable, you can consider reaching out to your therapist again to inquire about the silence and express your feelings. Be open to understanding their perspective as well.
Consider Other Therapeutic Options: If the therapeutic relationship cannot be repaired, you might want to explore finding a new therapist who can help you continue your healing journey.
Seek Closure: If you are unable to re-establish communication with your therapist, consider seeking closure on your own terms. Accept that the relationship has come to an end and focus on moving forward positively.
Professional Consultation: If you find it challenging to cope with the situation, you could consider consulting with another mental health professional to gain insight and support during this time.
Remember that therapy is about finding the right fit between the therapist and the client. If you encounter challenges in the therapeutic relationship, it's okay to seek alternative options that align better with your needs. Coping with the end of a therapeutic relationship can be challenging, but with support and self-compassion, you can navigate this experience and continue your growth and healing journey.