I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please consider reaching out to a crisis helpline or a mental health emergency service in your country.
Take care and prioritize your well-being.