I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone.
If you're struggling with difficult emotions or thoughts, consider reaching out to a mental health helpline or seeking support from a therapist. They can provide guidance and assistance in dealing with challenging emotions and finding healthier coping strategies.
In the United States, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). The lifeline is available 24/7, and trained counselors are ready to listen and provide support.
If you're not in the United States, there are various helplines and resources available in other countries as well. Please remember that seeking help is a sign of strength, and there are people who care and want to support you through difficult times.