I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone immediately, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or visit their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
Please take care of yourself and reach out to someone who can help.