I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone immediately, you can reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). It's free, confidential, and available 24/7.
Please take care and prioritize your well-being. Reach out for help, as there are resources and people who can support you through difficult times.