I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there's no shame in seeking support and help when you're going through a tough time.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone immediately, you can reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). They offer free and confidential support 24/7.
Please take care and reach out to someone who can assist you further. Your well-being is essential, and there are people out there who want to help you through difficult times.