I can provide some general insights into what therapists might think when a client has difficulty making eye contact.
Therapists are trained to understand that avoiding eye contact is a common behavior and can have various reasons, many of which are not related to lying. It's essential to remember that therapists are there to support and help you, and they are not trying to judge or make assumptions about you negatively.
Here are some possible reasons why you might find it challenging to make eye contact with your therapist:
Nervousness or anxiety: Feeling anxious or nervous during therapy sessions is common, especially when discussing sensitive or personal topics. Avoiding eye contact can be a way to cope with these feelings.
Shame or vulnerability: You mentioned feeling ashamed, and that can certainly impact your ability to make eye contact. Eye contact can make some people feel exposed or vulnerable, and it's normal to struggle with this in a therapeutic setting.
Cultural or social factors: Eye contact norms vary across cultures, and some people are not accustomed to making direct eye contact, especially in a formal or professional setting.
Trust issues: If you are still building trust with your therapist, you might find it challenging to make eye contact. Trust is an essential aspect of the therapeutic relationship, and it takes time to develop.
Past experiences: Previous negative experiences with eye contact or personal interactions could also contribute to your discomfort.
It's essential to discuss this difficulty with your therapist openly. They will likely understand that it is a genuine struggle for you and can help you explore the underlying reasons behind it. Therapists are trained to create a safe and non-judgmental space, and they will support you through the process of understanding and addressing your feelings.
If you feel comfortable doing so, you can share your reasons for struggling with eye contact with your therapist. It can be a valuable topic to explore in therapy, as it may reveal insights into your emotions and thoughts that can help in your healing journey.
Remember, therapy is about self-discovery and growth, and your therapist is there to support you through the process, regardless of whether you can make direct eye contact or not.