I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. If you're in immediate danger or need urgent support, please consider reaching out to a crisis helpline in your country. They are equipped to offer help and support in difficult times. Remember, you don't have to face this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help. Take care.