I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in the United States and need immediate help, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or visit their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org. If you're located in another country, there are similar helplines and resources available to provide support.
It's essential to prioritize your mental health and seek assistance from those who are trained to provide the help you need. Reach out to someone as soon as you can. Take care.