I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Opening up to someone about your feelings can be challenging, but it's an essential step towards finding support and understanding.
If you're in immediate distress or feeling overwhelmed, please consider reaching out to a helpline or emergency service in your country. They are equipped to offer assistance and can provide the appropriate help. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who want to support you.
Take care and prioritize your well-being. Reach out for help, and remember that there are resources available to support you through difficult times.